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Friday, January 8, 2010
✏ Excruciation.

Hello! As you guys can see, I am updating more often nowadays since I still got the time to cos I believe once February is over, I would not have the time to blog anymore :( 

So, it is only the 5th day of school and we have been assigned hmwk and upcoming tests next week. Ch, Maths, Chem and Bio. Stress? Very!! But I am kinda enjoying myself in school :) For Bio we have started studying the brain O.O It seems really interesting!!

Had dnt class just now and was given the theory paper but ain't sure it is from what year. Wasn't really enjoying while I was doing it lol. After school went to Np with Caro, Hh and Wm to meet Lishin, Qy, Sj, and Zj. Catch up with a few of them and then I went off at 2 plus :)

Gonna start doing my crazy load of hmwk after using the computer for a short while.....

A huge rock has been lifted from my chest and now I can finally heave a sigh of relief. Initially, I only expect you to know how I feel deep inside but now I am expecting so much more. You really surprised me when you told me that you're done after only 2 days. I thought you would take way longer than that as I assumed that you would start playing games when you get home. Although you had alr apologized, you still did not give me the answer that I had been waiting to hear. Now, I should be really contented with what I have and not to worry about what will/may happen to the both of us. I must must and have to really treasure this 10 months as we may not see each other after this anymore. I really hope that you would prove to me that you are worth everything. I am going to remind myself to not hope for too much as I will always end up disappointed.. Tell me, am I suppose to persevere or let go? Either ways it is gonna be so damn torturing and painful. When I fall, I have forgotten on how to pick myself up and continue moving on. I know I must not be so selfish afterall your future is way more important and what rights do I have to hold you back? I thought I would feel happier, sigh.... But we will be like the past soon right??????
Honestly and seriously, I cannot imagine how am I going to be able to adapt to a life w/o you.

4:30 PM
Thursday, January 7, 2010
✏ On cloud 9.. or maybe not.

Thanks for letting me know that you remember and bothered :) Although you hurt me with your words w/o even realizing it, I am still happy that I have made my efforts known. Maybe you will find that I am very lame but whatever, I don't care anymore. As expected, things hasn't change for the better at all. No surprise.. I think I deserve to take a break after a long battle of salvaging things b/t us. I am so tired from all these and still got to tolerate the nonsense that you would give me. You're lucky that you had trained me to be such a strong girl and now, I am used to almost everything. Why should I be taking things so seriously when you are not??

After 9 months, why am I still so used to the sweet, understanding and caring guy who stood by me in the past? Why did I tire myself out and worry about you when you are so engrossed with games and whatever shit that you're doing? Why did I get sad when you seem to be so happy? I know you didn't ask for all these and that's why I am stupid. At times I would be get so angry and dejected when you show me that I am nothing to you. But you have made me realize so many things and I should thank you for that.. Things like, how harsh you can really be, I should not be so naive and let my imagination run wild, no matter how much I change physically or mentally I would never be good enough for you. Lastly, you're not worth the wait. I only have myself to blame right?

I hate that I have a heart filled with emotions and so sentimental whereas you're the total opposite. Therefore, I am being taken for granted.

P.S. If you let others read it, I will kill you with a banana.

8:59 PM
Monday, January 4, 2010
✏ Back at school.....

I woke up at as early as 6:20 a.m. It may not be early for some of you but it is for me as I have yet to adjust back my sleeping time. Sadly I was too excited last night and could only fall asleep at 12 plus coming 1 a.m.

My sweetest Momma made milo for me but dump scoops of soya inside and it made me feel like vomiting. She said it would be good for me so yeah whatever. 

Did I mention that it was pouring and I was practically freezing? Damn I regretted not bringing my sweater.......................

Sat in the hall till my butt was sore and finally went back to class after an hour of sitting down and listening to those teachers.

Our form teacher is Mr Stanley Ang.

Back in class, I was bored stiff but was really looking forward to recess because I can finally eat my pandan cake! :) Very happy.

Had breakfast with Meixin &co, back in class for bonding games (quite fun cos Jl was entertaining us), went back to the hall for 2 hours to hear them talk crap and attire check.

I am not happy.

After school headed to mac for an ice cream cone with Caro, Fel and Jiemin. Currently at home and gonna have my lunch..

Anw I am so damn frustrated and annoyed by teachers or even the principal. How I wish Mr Goh was still here and would only retired at 2011.

What sounds most absurd to me is that even bangs aren't allowed anymore!!!!!!! As long as your stupid fringe is touching your eyebrow, you got to either pin it up or cut it. Ridiculous much? Yes.

And I dislike the way the school is 'threatening' us in a sense that if we don't pin up our fringe they would eventually cut it. Instead of allowing students to have a school shoe that is 75% white, now it's 100%. WHAT!!!!???

To make things worse, there would be an attire check EVERY MORNING! Can you imagine how free the school is? They said they want us to study hard but yet they waste time on all these unnecessary stuffs that would waste everyones' time. TOTAL BULL!

The principal wants to make Yishun Sec into a school with good reputation and turning it into a school most students would hesitate coming. She did not give us time to adapt and is very very very demanding. She claims that studies is important but she was just blabbering. (Talk is cheap isn't it?)

For E.G. The National Anthem.
When Mr Goh was still the principal, only a few of them sang but he didn't make us stand and sing again till he was satisfied. Why? Because he has our interest at heart and wants us to go back to class quickly so that we could start studying.
Now this stupid principal comes and thinks of changing the school 360 degree. Greedy? Totally.
Every morning we are being forced to sing to show that we respect the country. If she isn't satisfied we have to sing till she is. 
When we sing, this time I mean the upper sec, she don't praise us AT ALL. She would praise the lower sec for putting in the effort to sing out loud whereas we got to stand and sing all over again. Bias or deaf, I really can't tell.

I really regretted coming back to sec 5 but Momma wants me to take O levels and get into Poly.

Tmr there would be talks again only Wednesday, we'll start normal lessons. We're going to be packed with extra lessons and it is really very hectic.

Lessons haven't even start yet I am alr feeling so stressed. 

Overall: My butt is sore and legs are numb and I came home with a backache too. Awesome? GTH!!

Ok I am gonna have my lunch while watching CSI and then try to sleep early tonight. 

Cheerio ciao~

3:37 PM
Friday, January 1, 2010
✏ A fresh brand new start..

I believe it's gonna be a pretty long post so if you can't bear with it, you may leave and I won't blame you :)

Firstly,

A VERY HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE!


Last night was a wonderful night although almost all of us was drained out and totally exhausted. To me, it was an unforgettable and fun countdown:) No worries, I will explain it in details.....

The day started with me waking up at 11:20am sharp. Washed up, ate and prepared to meet Fel who just came back from the beautiful Europe haha.

I was late due to an arse name Syarril:) Damn you!!!!!! (seriously fked up and pissed)

But anyway, Fel was happily eating her laksa while blowing flies away while eating. How cute? Afterwhich we trained down to Orchard and went to Ion to walk around and that Fel was hungry and she got her yoghurt.

she can't stop eating yet still so skinny zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

Then we walked over to Fareast nothing to do then walk over to Hereen but couldn't find the hairband that I wanted. Off to Cine then trained back to Yishun to meet those sweethearts.

At first we planned to catch the 650pm movie but Caro was late so me and Fel headed to Subway for dinner. Oh yes she had tako balls before that, huge appetite right? Crazy fellow.

Enjoyed every bite of the subway meltz and yummy yummy cookies :D They arrived then Fel and Lishin bought muahchee. Fel ate again, yes.

Went to withdraw cash and bought my contact lenses then we walked to 900 plus to rent a horror show to watch at my place.

Rushed to GV cos it was alr 840pm and we were watching Sherlock Holmes. We even had time to use the washroom and buy drinks so you can imagine how long the adverts were.....

It was an awesome and interesting movie :) Jon wasn't really paying attention and so he was asking questions after the movie while Caro and Fel used the washroom.
And I guessed that he was way too attracted to the popcorn almost the whole time that he couldn't raise his head to look at the screen.

F.Y.I. we were sitting at the front row T.T But luckily our necks were perfectly all right when we left. Just that our butts were sore from the 2 hour movie.

Momma met with a small accident but am glad that she's fine and able to vacuum the place haha!

The movie finished at around 11 and then we walked over to my place. Waited for Qinyi to cab down from his workplace then we count down with Channel 5. We couldn't help laughing at "Da Mouth".
If you watched or were at the Marina Bay, you will understand what I mean if you're observant or just as bored as us to take note of such stuffs.

Watched the cd we rented, Body #19. It was an awfully boring show and halfway I was alr asleep and so was some of them...

I suggested to watch Male Gigolo as it was a comedy and I bet they would enjoy it and yeap I was right cos all of us were laughing away :) Phew~

Started to dig for food and Qinyi suggested to call mac and it would be his treat.. It was alr 3 am. They decided to call the bundle meal and I helped them do the talking haha.

Was put on hold for such a long time and when I walk away, Qinyi panicked cos he didn't know how to order. Funny guy? Yes.

All of us were in the kitchen besides Sj and Caro who were watching 'Coraline'. After placing the order, most of them went down to send Fel back by cab..

Halfway mac came and it was..... Shahril muahaha.

Qinyi was damn annoying I tell you!!!!!! I couldn't resist the temptation to smack him LOL!

And so, they came up and we talked while they ate in the kitchen. I went to shower and they were playing xbox.

At 6a.m, we all went to the hill opposite my place and played like small kids.
At 7a.m, we were sitting down at the coffee shop to talk cock.
At 7 plus, we walked to the bustop and everyone went home.
At 8a.m, I was finally lying down on my bed and preparing to sleep.
At 3:22p.m, I woke up and had my yummy angkukueh :)

Have to thank Chubby for bringing the laptop over for me if not I can't blog till don't know when..

Will compensate for letting my blog rot by uploading the photos taken on Christmas day:)

While having pastamania:




Chum:



Girlfriends that I count on:




There you go!!!! It's a bit blur cos I got a new phone and I'm trying to get used to it.......

Finally it's 2010 and I really cannot wait to go back to school on Monday!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I also can't wait to get my bagpack which was OOS but that kind sales person bothered to sms me to inform me that he would reserve for me!!!!!!!!!!

I can't believe that things are going so well!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Before I forget,

MY NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS:

  • To shed 2 more kg of fats.
  • To grow at least 3-4 cm more.
  • To study really hard for O levels.
  • Get into vet course.
  • No further frictions :)
 

That should be all I guess........ Or maybe I should say this are the more important ones as they are the first few that flashed in my mind..

I'll miss all of you that didn't want to continue sec 5 :) Promise to keep in touch!!!!

To my 2 beloved and most cherished sweethearts; Lishin & Caroline:
 

I love you both to the max:) Though we may not know what might become of us in the future, I know that for now, we would still be staying in contact. I promise I wouldn't forget any of you. Promise me too okay? And always keep and carry the 48 pink crystal stars I had given to the both of you. Hoping that it would always bring you good luck.
See chocolates and be reminded of me. See angels and be reminded to be strong always. See clouds in the humongous blue sky and know that I'm always here. See stars and know that a few galaxies represents how much I treasure you both.

The both of you are my pillars of support and thanks for standing by me though I was throwing tantrums and blabbering nonsensical stuffs.

I hope that I had made a difference in your lives cos you both did.

XOXO.
Dear, this is for you


Please do well in your O levels this year and concentrate fully on studies and not on other things that are not important. Last year I had an amazing time with you although things were rather bleak for the past few 7 months or so.. 
I have to forget every bad memories that was left behind by you. It's gonna take time but don't worry, I won't annoy you.
Nope I didn't regret knowing you at all :) You taught me how to be strong and independent w/o realizing it. I am much stronger now that you have given me such treatment.
A huge thanks to you because I can withstand hardships w/h the need to break down or be all emotional about it.
I believe it would be of no difference this year.
Pass your O levels and get into a good course in poly so that you will hold a stable and good paying job and able to settle down in the future.
And I'm thankful for being able to see you for another approx. 10 months more.

Happy 9 months in 2 more days time :)

Thanks for letting me realize that all these has no boundaries. 

It's a new year and it means a brand new start.

6:27 PM
Thursday, December 31, 2009
✏ Last breath of 2009

As everyone is counting down to a new year, I miss 2009 somehow.

Although things went really bad in school with friends and there were countless of frictions and somehow each of us lost friends, it was still a superb year.

Because of all this, all of us realize who are true friends and also who are the real hyprocrites and bitches out there and I'm really glad :)

I celebrated Christmas with all of my love ones and I'm really blessed to have met such friends. Indeed I'm grateful THANK GOD...

Most of the times things would not go as planned initially but still, it worked out somehow and I'm happy that things are the way it is right now.

Got rid of irritating douchebags, annoying and fake friends, people who treated me like crap/spare:)

So excited to go back to school and see every single one of you!!!!!!!!!!

I'm gonna meet Fel to town and then off to meet those sweethearts for a movie then countdown over at my place :D

Hopefully it's gonna be an unforgettable and fun day for everyone!!!

Cheerio ciao~

11:58 AM